I remember growing up and always feeling a bit awkward. There aren't too many tall, lanky, freckle faced girls out there (or at least it seemed like there wasn't) I remember hoping that my children would be beautiful, not have my complexion, and have the confidence I never really had. Well, the Lord answered my prayers. Not only do I have beautiful children - one with the most wonderful sprinkles across her nose, but they have confidence...enough for anyone that might lack a little. How did I get so lucky to be blessed with these monkies?

For some that may not know I had a difficult time getting pregnant. JD and I tried for 5 years and thankfully I was in the Air Force at the time and they sent me through the wide world of fertility. For almost a year we were both poke and prodded and I felt like I had more blood drawn and procedures scheduled than I care to remember.

On my last attempt at drugs before the real fertility started (in vitro) I was on clomid. This medication made me a crazy woman...I am so not kidding. Most of the time I am pretty even tempered, but the slightest thing would set me off and those hormones were something I never really had dealt with on that level before.
I remember at the time asking why me...why can't I have one baby. Everyone else seemed to be popping them out whether they meant to or not. I spent many hours throwing myself pity parties.
On my last month of clomid treatment, I found out we were pregnant with Taylor. Funny story here actually...I took a test, looked at it (not closely) and just threw it in the trash. I was so accustomed to a negative result, that's all I seem to see. A few days later I was cleaning out a bathroom cabinet and found the information packet that came with my multi pack pregnancy tests. The illustration caught my eye and I had a flash back to a few days back when I saw that exact illustration that showed a POSITIVE pregnancy test. I was with a friend and we both just laughed and headed to the trash. Not sanitary, I know...but we weren't really thinking. After we realized we were digging through the trash we had the brilliant idea of going to get a new test! LOL! As luck would have it I was out of tests so we hopped in the car and headed to the local gas station. As we ran in we looked like such ninnies, she found the test and literally threw it at me and said "go pee, I'll pay" So, folks, I found out that I was pregnant in a gas station! LOL! The clerk laughed and clapped when I came out smiling. Apparently my friend had probably shared too much info while paying....ANYWAY...
2 more followed - apparently my body figured out what was wrong.

I'm so lucky to have these three in my life and a husband who qualifies for the worlds best daddy. What a phenomenal daddy he is.

And you know what...I finally figured out why me...it wasn't time yet. If I had kids on my schedule they wouldn't be these three...the three that God sent me to be their mommy.